i had a dream last night and somehow it made me come to my senses. hahas.

for the start, 2 yrs ago, he treated me so nice, it all started with courtesy. and slowly we grew closer and i grew dependent on him.. we shared a lil secrets and slowly more and more, and till now, almost everything. best friends, this is wat i call us. no bounderies, no manners, no politeness between us anymore. there were fun times and nice long talks. but slowly, i started to realise something, mayb i should call it, one-sided.

i was so into our friendship but in the end, i found out there's something not right. most of the thing's comes after our friendship to me, but to him, it was just, ya, a total opposite.somehow down the road, i've realised it and i tot i was just thinking too much again. i lied to myself, ever since than, again and again.

but the thing is he just give in to me sosssss much and it's like i just grew more and more dependent on him. and now, almost cant even get off him. and that, make me sound so desperate in our friendship. to me, i'll just feel so uneasy if i dont get to talk to him for one day, but who knows mayb to him, 1week wont make much difference. i dunno how to say, but this is just hurting me deeply.

i dont wan our friendship to come to an end, but than, wat used to bring joy, now became a drag. smiles were replaced be tears due to all the unecessary arguments. everytime, the more i try to bring us together, the further apart we go. maybe i shall call for halt. stop here for the time being. tried of making him and myself upset.

i should start to loosen my grip, but i know, there's a point where i'll grab it tight again,losing all the unhappiness and tears, and bringing with all the smiles and laughters again. (((:

kept me waiting and waiting but never did he come. should i continue to wait? or just stand up and walk away?